waaaaaaaaaah!!!

hell sem...indeed...the worst of all in my life as a college student...

of course...it started out as a brutal registration format not knowing i was getting a bad combo of subjects...this sem...i took chem16...general chemistry...oh yeah...it was bloody murder...but i will get to that later...then i was informed that i could take my thesis this semester...of course, because of the lousy registration format...i had no choice but to take up my thesis this sem...everything was going fine then on...got my subjects went to class and paid my tuition eventually...

a week later, daddy died...my life stopped for a week...

it was even harder going back to the real world without daddy...we had to change homes...everything was on my shoulders now...had to be strong...back to work...back to school...ive lost momentum...

i did well with my major subjects...but failed the first chem16 exam...the next exam was scheduled three weeks after...but classes were suspended because of a storm...for two weeks classes were suspended...thought it was fun but it turned out worse...i even lost more momentum and failed my second exam in chem16...all the papers for my thesis piled up because of lost time...this is where hell broke loose...

remember the time when people wished for rain? well, be careful of what you wish for...flash floods and flash papers!!! at the end of the semester...the university was catching up with time...everything kept on piling up with papers!!! and exams!!! sooooooooooo much bullshit going on...i hated cramming...i used to be ahead of time...this time...i was forced to cram because my school was cramming....heard of that happening before??

by now the semester should be over as i have said in the title of this entry...but no! the meaning of over in the title is "sobra na"...over talaga grabe!!! its not over yet...im here still doing another paper...afterwhich, i will be studying for my final exam in chem16...good thing that my thesis proposal is done...well to all up students, Godspeed to all of us!! ;p

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astig ito promise!!!! hahaha

helllllloooooooooooooo!!!! im back!! grabe inabot ako ng almost one year bago magpost uleeet!!! anyway, next time nalang ako kwento...antok na ko and its the unholy 3am hour...yikes...sa lahat namiss ko kyo at tingin nalang kyo sa album ko para patikim sa mga pinag gagagawa ko...hehe

its finally over!!!! grades viewing..kanikanina lang...shet!! i finally passed fucking math...take note..di lang siya pasang awa...yeah!! make peace and love!!! hahaha! haaay...1st sem..3rd year..it over!!

pasesnsya na at ngayon lang ulet ako nakapagpost..what has happened to me this sem?? actually its a little disappointing if we talk about academics..di naman mababa grades ko..in fact, my grades are good this sem..para lang kasing walang nanyari sa kin ngayong sem sa acads..parang wala kong natutunan..above all, masaya nga kong napasa ko na yung fucking math..pero retake lang yun eh..parang binawi ko lang..tas yung ibang subjects..parang la lang..pampadagdag units..ala talagang nanyari..

what other things happened this sem? for the first time, i finished an entire sem working part time..oh yes! that's an achievement!! it made me learn how to feed myself..yun lang..hahaha! ito rin yung sem na nakasali rin ako sa org sa up! first and last org ko na yun sa scul..tae..what a busy life..pero masaya!

lastly, lets go to the deep side..hehe eto na!! wala naman...since summer break, ive been very close minded when it comes to that stuff..i don't know..it is more like a sudden shift of myself..towards the unknown..haha but im not saying that im not meeting girls anymore! naman..anlungkot ko naman..hahaha but i don't believe anymore in that thing you call what?? "ligaw"?? hahaha! siguro yun yung nawala sa kin..pag nanliligaw ka kasi..you won't be able to show who you really are already..lahat ng bagay planado..tapos pag naging kayo, dyan na magkakalabuan..kasi di naman talaga kayo magkakilala eh..ayun..just let things happen..hehe nice.

may kinwento ba ko tungkol sa sarili ko this sem about the previous paragraph?? hahaha..wala ata eh..shet i need a new life..although merun naman akong "kinoclose" ngayon..yun ba ang tamang word since di na ko naniniwala sa ligaw?? hahaha! well..ala pa naman masyadong nanyayari(thank God)..i guess it's fine this way for now..come what may..wag lang makasakit..hehe

this sem was academically disappointing, but it was really adventurous and fun..hope next sem it would be a lot better..peace and love!

it has been ten days since father's day...i asked myself, what have i done for him?...

i figured...i am earning 5000 bucks a month and i haven't given my father a gift on father's day but one 1.5L coke..surely disappointing..hehe..the good part was we were all happy that day..very unlikely for our home..

you see..my sister always told me that there is some kind of evil presence in our home that makes every body angry all the time..going home means expecting daddy to be in a bad mood...well, i have to accept it, its always like that..thats why i spend so much time away from home..it has always been like this since i was a kid..great childhood isn't it?

since i was a small kid, 5 or 6 years old to be specific, daddy has always been strict towards me..every single day was a grueling challenge for me as a kid..i always go home being scolded at in a very unimaginable way..i always had to larn the hard way..

it continued til i was in high school..i never had a life of what my friends had as teenagers...i always had to come home early..always had to do chores...especially the banyo..always had to study instead of going out on a weekend or on a holiday...life sucked at that time..

until now shit happens..life sucks but i am enjoying every part of it...something that i learned as i grew up to be like this..

i would never be like this if it wasn't for my father..he taught me how to be wise rather than be really intelligent..because i will really need it more in the yars to come..

he has a humble job right now but he always finds a way to feed us..so i can understand why he's always like that...

i had to learn everything the hard way but the results are for the best..

the hardest part of my life as of now was the time my parents got separated..i admit it...i wasn't able to handl it well..i made so many stupid decisions at that time..confusion killed me..

the good thing was my father kept me on track..he never showed signs of being lonely at those times eventhough i know he was in fact very hurt..what he was to me and my sister, remained the same..Strict with a capital S..

one trait that i will never forget about daddy is him being very protective..i remember the time that he scolded my aunt, his older sister, when she bullied me and my sister when we were children..that was really hilarious! also, i remember the time that a girl made a fool out of me...daddy said, "i don't ever wnt to see, hear that girl again..

but of all the things that i have said...there is one thing that i will never forget...about three months ago, for th first time, daddy opened up..he talked to me...and cried in front of me..he said he was sorry he's like that..eventhough i hated him, he loves me and he's very proud of what i am right now..as for my part...i couldn't help but really burst into tears at that time...seriously, it was the first time i have felt my father's arms in so many years..

what have i done for my father this father's day? i guess all the things that i have achived so far..he is proud of me...that is enough...and i am going to kep it that way..one more thing..i don't hate daddy...no matter what or who he is, he will always be my hero..i love him very much...and i am proud to be his son...if God would ask me to live again..i would tell Him that i want daddy to be my father again..being what i am today, it is because of him..

life sucks...but enjoying every part of it..

thank you daddy...happy father's day!